September 2010
Watchpiercetheveil:
Here’s our new video for “Caraphernelia”!!!!
I didn’t know the lead singer of ADTR was screaming! This song is that much more amazing now. <3
Je suis tombee.
I fell off the wagon this weekend, and it did me a world of good. I felt bloated and disgusting, something I did not want to feel. It makes me want to work even harder today and the rest of my life. Yoga makes me feel better, even if I cannot be a good tree. I will get better, I promise. Especially now that you are on your way back. I missed you.
Puzzle Pieces
Everything is falling back into place. My heart rate does not increase when you show up, and your smile is just another smile. You are just another face I see every day. It doesn’t even bother me. I am happy that you are back in my life, though. I have missed you by my side.
Scientific American Asked
“If you were given a free hand to plan how your life will end—your last weeks, days, hours, and minutes—-what would you choose?”
I don’t know what I would choose. I am constantly thinking about it, but I don’t know. I do not even know if I would like to know if I was on my last weeks. Would I want it planned? Would I want to, as the country ballad says, live...
Sweetened or Unsweetened?
In between calculus and evolution, I bought a pack of menthols. I gave my other pack away yesterday because I don’t smoke. I prefer the smell. Especially when I have been extremely stressed lately. When I do “smoke,” I don’t inhale all the way. Just enough to taste it. What does this say about me? I certainly don’t smell fabulous, stale cigarettes is not...
Swirling Smoke
I only like the smell, and it isn’t addictive, or would it be addicting? I don’t know, but my phone autocorrected to addictive. Anyway. Other things are addictive/addicting. Your presence is one. It has been seven days today, and five days since you were last seen. I have no reason to worry, I know. It is ridiculous that I am counting the days. I need a good slap in the face, and maybe...
This Title is Optional.
Almost everything in life is optional. How philosophical of me. I would say everything in life is optional, but some of your actions depend on the actions of others. I had a very eloquent and/or meaningful thought earlier, but it has slipped my mind. Right now, the only thingon my mind is absence. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, but what if the heart forgets? What if the mind forgets?...
Confession Time
1 I am terrified of ending up alone. No matter how much I say that I don’t mind raising a child by myself, I am the most terrified of ending up spending the rest of my life all alone.
Two Faced
/: Confusion is a constant in my life.
|X Exhaustion. I am constantly moving on auto-pilot. I wish I could return my life to manual.
Hier et Aujourd'hui.
Turn offs:
1. Ignorance. Please have a brain bigger than your balls.
2. Sideburns. I know this is superficial, but sideburns died decades ago.
3. Drug use. Don’t fuck your brain cells up, you can’t grow more. Relationships of all sorts should be more of a high than a chemical could ever give you.
4. Bad teeth. You need teeth, how about keeping them nice?
Turn ons:
1. Tasteful...
If It Means A Lot To You
1. Aunt Joyce
2. Natalie
3. Duffel Bag :{3
4. Andrew
5. You, whoever is reading this.
This is going to be a two-for-one. Quelle chance! My heart and those in it are on sale today! Sarah’s never seen me act this way, and I don’t think anyone else has either. I am putting myself out there, y-incision and all, for you. I am making myself nervous. Whenever I have a second to think,...
Can't take this back.
1. I wish I hadn’t waited until the last minute to fill out my UVA application. Maybe I would be at UVA right now.
2. I wish I had paid more attention in Chem 115. I wouldn’t be retaking it.
3. I wish I had made more friends my age.
4. I wish I had taken summer classes instead of a second job.
5. I wish I took initiative when it came to boys earlier in my life. I am super awkward....
Thought Bubbles
1. Thinking, I think about thinking. How does one clear their mind when they are always thinking? I have never had an empty mind.
2. Love. Will I ever find someone? How will I know when I do? Why would I want to put someone through the stress of meeting my crazy family?
3. Medical school. What if I don’t get into med school? What will I do? How will I find time to volunteer, so I can...
Just a Brief Announcement.
While dozing at the pool, in between chemical testing and cannon balls, I made a plan of attack for tomorrow. I am absolutely positive I can follow through. A lid, one cannot drink coffee without having the lid in their eyes, will have “Call me! -Kat ###-###-####” written on it. That is, if he follows through on his part. The holiday weekend is over, so it should happen. The week will...
Mon Coeur
1. One must be willing to humour me when it comes to watching Discovery Health. I enjoy watching Trauma Life in the E.R. so much.
2. Laughter. I enjoy humour of all sorts. If I cannot laugh, I cannot be happy with someone.
3. Intelligent conversation makes me happy. Ignorance is a huge turn off. If I cannot speak with a man at my intelligence level, I am leaving.
4. Remain in my life. There are...
Neuf.
1. I often find myself thinking en francais.
2. Spiders make me cry.
3. My television has to be on Discovery Health, or sometimes USA.
4. If I had to chose between marrying an attractive man that exists and Draco Malfoy, I would choose Draco Malfoy.
5 I take two gummy vitamins every morning, preferably the mixed berry kind. The peach ones taste okay, too.
6. Rose perfume is my favourite.
7....
Dix Choses
1. I am nervous about letting you into my life. It is hard for me to open up to new people, but it is easy to talk to you. We agree quite a bit, and we have the same tastes. I am happy to have met you, but I don’t want to get attached to people at ODU. I consider it far away from my life on the Portsmouth side of the tunnel.
2. What are we doing these days? Exactly, nothing. I don’t...
I'll get to this, hopefully, in between classes.
hessicuse:
-kathleen:
leslover:
katiedrew:
hideyourdisguise:
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now. Day Two: Nine things about yourself. Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart. Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot. Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done. Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever). Day Seven: Four...
Morning Musings
Now that I have this on my phone, I am going to be blogging nonstop. It is a place to keep my thoughts. I am on a ten at work, and I went back on the floor to see him. You know who I am talking about, n’est-ce pas? Only one trip through today, though. He has started clinicals, and is heading up to Williamsburg. I love Billsburg.
I cannot wait for med school. What age range is that? 22-26?...
Oh man.
I have not “blogged” in a long time. I have written, yes. I have written words that I have dared to let escape, words that I hope will never be viewed by those I love. I have written words that will hurt. I am ashamed, but that is the way it had to be. My stomach is always churning these days. I am unsure why this is happening, and I am torn between loving it and hating it. Sometimes...
